I was always the broken one. The one they wanted to fix or make better. I never understood why. I was born to a very disfunctional mom and that made me the project of the family. Past from one reletive to another. Till finally my uncles family took me in after ” praying for an answer” I went to live with them two years after my dear grandfather and the only one that every understood me had past away.
I was raised in a church i never understood and was forced fed a set of rules I couldn’t grasp. I was always trying to fit some mold and look at as the black sheep of the family. Not only uncomfortable in my own skin but i felt like a liar every time i sat in the church bench..arms folded neatly.
always compared to my other siblings, a;ways the one that needed to pray more, do more. so I left home when I was 18 and met a nice missionary. He went home and called me when he was done. A week before marrying him he admitted to not being in love with me but felt like we had no other choice. We were married 10 years and had two amazing children. Five years into the relation ship we both realized that we were living a lie and i began sleeping on the couch… Five years after that we couldnt live the lie any more. I went to the bishop many times and was told repent, pray..repeat. After my divorce i moved home and thought I could handle being near my parents. The ones that “save” me fell back inti that pattern. I had to wak up and realize I was never broken just hiding. I am now in an amazing relationship with a woman who treats me and my children like gold. Their father, before he passed away told me he always knew and was happy i finally saw who i was. My parents choose not to speak to me but i know that they love me, no matter how broken thay think i am. And me? I am happy with the little cracks.. thats where I like it most. I am perfectly unperfect.
I am writing another letter after the passing of prop. 8. I am struggling to understand why it is taking so long for you to tell the full story about your involvement in the campaign. I also struggle to understand your lack of movement on the Common Ground Campaign. Looking at your statements in “The Divine Institution of Marriage” your lack of involvement looks like this statement was never meant “The Church does not object to rights (already established in California) regarding hospitalization and medical care, fair housing and employment rights, or probate rights,”.
I go back to the huge amount of prejudice that undeniably exist in the church. I see hateful comments said in every ward I have ever attended. I know personally Mormon homosexuals that have never acted on their feelings and yet they are encouraged to be secretive about who they are. They painfully attend church afraid that their fellow ward members will reject them if they find out. If the church’s position is truly there is not sin in the feelings of homosexuality why than do we put up with this kind of bigotry. Also, if the church truly “does not condone any kind of hostility towards homosexual men and women”, why do you not act to stop the hostility these members face every time they come to church. We have seen your ability to mobilize millions of dollars, if your words are true why do you sit and let these members experience hostility and why to you let so many members believe they should fight the Common Ground bills in Utah when they so clearly support what you said in the “Divine Institution of Marriage”.
Gail F. Bartholomew
In their attempt to exempt themselves from California’s campaign finance laws, Yes on 8 took their case to Federal Court and lost. It’s a good thing for us they did.
Yesterday, the LDS Church finally released their accounting of their donations to Yes on 8. It totaled over $180,000. It’s a far cry from their previously reported $2000. Even the new amount could be arguably low if one were to consider the market value of the media the Church produced. It is very likely they only counted the hourly rate of the employees that created the material.
But even so, weren’t we told when Yes on 8 went to court that all donations $1000 or more had been reported?
In fact, even in their press release regarding the case poses this Q&A.
“Isn’t this an attempt to shield large donors to Prop 8 from the public?
No. All donors of $1,000 or above have already been disclosed, as have all donors of $100 or more as of October 18, 2008. Only disclosure of those donors of $100 to $999 who contributed since October 18, 2008 are impacted.”
We knew the Church had more disclosures to file. When Fred Karger filed a complaint with California’s Fair Political Practices Commission regarding the Church’s seemingly modest filing, a spokesperson for the LDS Church said they had until Jan 31 to file. Surely the Yes on 8 Campaign, in their constant collusion with the LDS Church knew this was coming.
So that begs the question, exactly who was Yes on 8 seeking to protect by filing for an exemption of disclosure? Was it really about the little donors of $100 or was it to protect the LDS Church from even more bad PR?